DAY SIXTEEN// THE PERSON THAT’S NOT IN YOUR STATE
You’re the next closest thing to a biological dad to me. When my real dad was absent, you were the man I looked up to, who I loved like we were blood related, who would take me on adventures, everything a little girl wanted in a dad. It’s still the same though. No one could replace you in my heart. You will always be my dad. My favorite part of the summer is when I go to San Diego to visit you. I dread the minute I have to say goodbye to you. You’ve always been one of my sweetest hellos and my hardest goodbyes. I think about you constantly and send good thoughts your way. I always think about how you’re the sweetest guy in the whole world, and you are the most caring in the whole world. I’m excited that you have found someone to share your life with, and you’re expecting a new life in October. I wish I would be here to see him. You’re going to be the perfect dad to that little one, just like you were/are with me and Kasi. I love you.
DAY FOURTEEN// SOMEONE YOU’VE DRIFTED AWAY FROM
DAY FIFTEEN// THE PERSON YOU MISS THE MOST
Jenna, Jenna loo, Jan, Jenner, Jen Jen. The last couple times we have hung out have been so refreshing. Honestly, the first time we hung out this summer (when we went to the park) I was really nervous. I didn’t know how it would be, if it would be awkward, if we wouldn’t have anything to talk about or if it had just been too long and we wouldn’t be able to rekidle our friendship. To my surprise, though, it was exactly how it used to be. We reminisced of old times, we caught up, and we’re back to being the best of friends. I am so glad to say that no matter how long of a gap there is between seeing or talking to each other, the outcome is always the same: we’re best friends, no matter what, through everything, we will always think of each other as the person who we can always go to. It took far too long this summer to start hanging out again. It really sucks that we will have to put everything on pause, but like I said earlier.. no matter the time gap, we’re best friends. I know you’re going through a rollercoaster of emotions right now, especially because you start school again next week. But Jenna, you are going to fly right through it. You’ll make great friends and you’ll be so excited to make it through. I’m glad I’ll be home to see you graduate. I hope you know I love you and I will always be here if you need anything. Forever.
DAY TEN// SOMEONE YOU DON’T TALK TO AS MUCH AS YOU’D LIKE TO.
I hate that we don’t talk on a daily basis like we used to. After Emma left is just seems like we totally drifted apart. Some of it is also because my priorities changed and I put others in front of you. I am so incredibly sorry I did that.. you mean the world to me and I regret not hanging out with you more. Just know that I will always have a special place for you in my heart and you will always be one of my best friends. I miss you.
DAY NINE// SOMEONE YOU WISH YOU COULD MEET
Dear Kari Jobe,
I’ve seen you perform two times now and everytime it gives me chills. I want to meet the person whose music makes me fall in love with God all over again. Everytime you lead worship for God I feel so at peace. At the desperation concert I felt a little awkward. People were jumping up and down and everyone was on fire for God. When you started singing I started feeling it and during one song.. I don’t know the name (my boyfriend and I call it “yahweh” haha) I felt the urge to raise my hand to the Lord and really sing it to him. I can’t thank you enough for releasing me. It was one of the best feelings I have ever felt.
DAY EIGHT// A DEAD RELATIVE
I miss you. We all miss you. It’s been seven years since you died, you’re far from forgotten. I think about you on a daily basis. Especially when I drive to Fort Collins. Remember those antique shops we would go to all the time? I haven’t done that since you died, but I remember it being the best days. I loved all of the old stuff. I think that’s why I became so in love with keys. We would talk about the mystery of them, all the possibilities. They’re beautiful. I think of you when I see geese in the sky because you told me that if you listened close enough.. you could hear the flap of their wings. Birthdays remind me of you, how you would always spread butter on our noses on the day of our birthday, I also remember how mom would get so mad at you, you would just giggle. And how you would alway put glitter in the cards so when we would open them it would go all over us. You and your tricks :). Whenever I was sick you would stay home with me, we would have picnics on the table by the couch where I laid all day. You would bring those potato sticks that I loved so much and we would just talk. I’ve never been mad at you for what you did. I’ve always sort of understood. But that doesn’t make me miss you any less. I love you.
DAY FIVE// YOUR DREAMS
I know you through two different ways: reality and subconscious thinking. You make me wake up sometimes happy, sad, optimistic, scared or just plain confused. More lately though, you’ve been leaving me scared. I have been having nightmares lately. I recently had a dream about me getting shot it the heart, and no one caring. It was so vivid, it was frightening. I have also been dreaming about my mom. You, dreams, make me relive the things that haunt me daily, at night.
More importantly, the reality aspect. I dream of helping the world. I dream of making a positive impact. Even if it be on a little girl whose mom is an alcoholic, or if it be on a country that is devastated by a disease that is so simply prevented, if only they had the education. I will be the change.
DAY FOUR// YOUR SIBLING
there is no one who is more loving than you. no one more giving than you. no one i would rather have as a sister than you. you get the normal “yeah, my sibling and I are sooo close.” but i feel like its different with us. we’re beyond close. you’ve been more than a sister to me, you’ve been a mom, a hero and a best friend. we’ve shared so many different bonds it’s just brought us to a whole different level. since the day i was born, you have cared for me. since that day you got me out of my crib and fed me a bottle all the way to the present, where you check up on me daily just to see if i’m okay. when i think of what i’m going to miss most next year, i think of you and mom. every time i think of leaving you i cry and i just don’t want to do it. i’ve never been more than an hour from you.. now i’ll be 15. now i won’t even be a simple phone call away. i’m going to miss you so much. i say you’re my hero because you are. through everything, you’ve never left me abandoned or lonely. i know you wanted to reach out and study outside of CO, and i feel like you didn’t because you wanted to remain here, with me. because you felt i needed you. i can’t thank you enough. the time you needed to put yourself first, you thought of me. you’re the best thing to happen to my life. without you, i wouldn’t have made it. i remember one day, when mom was going through rough times, we had to leave. it was pouring rain and we got in your car and drove down the street. we just sat and talked. i don’t know why, but i will always remember that. we always stuck it out together. that’s exactly why i cant imagine being away from you, you’ve always shared every experience with me. i don’t want to miss a single moment of your life. i am so proud of who you have become. i always find myself thinking of how amazing and beautiful of a person you are. inside and out. i love you so much, sister.
DAY THREE// YOUR PARENTS
Ooops! A day late!
A couple of weeks ago I wrote you a letter in a journal and I gave it to you in hopes that it would bring you to a sense of optimism. I hoped maybe a rush of power and strength would bring you to the state you need to get clean. I hoped it would bring you the knowledge that I love you more than I will ever love anyone. I would take a bullet for you right now if it meant you would become sober, healthy and happy. I mean that, from every ounce of my being. I toss and turn at night worrying about you and it often brings me to tears the feeling of being so uncertain if you’ll be around tomorrow. I feel so terrible about going to Thailand sometimes, especially as it draws near.. I’m getting more and more afraid. I don’t want a phone call from someone telling me you have died while I’m there. As much as people say that it wouldn’t be my fault, I would never be able to forgive myself for not being around. People say I can’t save you, but I would die trying. I would be completely broken if I failed you. I don’t think anyone realizes how bonded we are, even still after all of the terrible things that have happened. I will never find anyone who completes me like you do. You’ll always be that one person I will always want to talk to about my problems. You’ll always be the person I dream of dancing the night away with. You’ll always be the best mom to me.. you really were the best mom I could have asked for. Drugs and alcohol consumed you, though and I don’t know where you went. I just hope one day we can meet up again. I hope in this life. But if it’s in heaven.. well that’s the best place anyway. I love you.
DAY TWO// YOUR CRUSH
Since I am currently in love, i’m not doing this about a crush, i’m doing this about my significant other :)
Who would have thought that we would end up being together? It was so long ago that we first had class together, I looked at you and thought you were the most handsome boy I’d ever seen but somehow you slipped away from me. We know what that somehow is and as much as I hate to admit it, it was the best thing for you at the time. You’ve grown up so much since then and I have too. There are no words that can describe how much I simply adore you. Everything about you astounds me and makes me fall in love with you all over again. It’s probably ridiculous to most how incredibly in love we are. We have the ability to spend incredible amounts of time together and we never tire of being in each others presence. We laugh at each other, maybe even at the dumbest of jokes but I can honestly say you’re hilarious, my love :). No one makes me smile like you do. No one makes me laugh harder than you can. You treat me the best anyone has treated me in the longest time. You don’t treat me like a princess because you know I am not a damsel in distress, but you treat me like a strong woman who at times does need someone to care for her, because she does go through hard times. You continually tell me that I don’t need anyone, but the power of God, because I am strong and I will endure. You don’t understand how much that shows me that you believe in me, and I need that: to be believed in. I’ve never felt this before, I’ve never felt so trusting with my heart until I met you. I gave my heart so easily toyou and I wasn’t scared. I know you hold it like you never want to hurt it, like you never want to hurt me. The simplest things you do send shivers up my spine. Your random ways of telling me you love me. Even when it’s just simply saying it 20 times aday, or giving me flowers, or when it’s pouring rain you opening an umbrella at my door so I don’t get wet on the way to the car, or you just looking at me like you are glad I am there and you don’t want me to leave. Last night, my oldest friend told me “he’s one of the best things that has happened to you in awhile.” and I just looked up and said “I know.” You have introduced meto a whole new life. I was living in skepticism of God until I met you. You taught me his creation and the mission. You brought a whole new perception into my life. It’s much happier now, thanks to you. God is doing work within you, I see it shine through every single day. You’re the best candidate, you know. Your caring nature is perfect for the job. You put others before you. Like when your friend was going through rough times and you started introducing God into his life again, it’s still a work in progress, but he’s going to youth group this week (hopefully). And even if that doesn’t work out the way you want it, I know you won’t get discouraged because these things take time. Which is also why you’re great for the job: you’re patient. That’s not the only thing, though. When you prayed for my mom at church, when you got baptized, when you witnessed me get baptized, and that same service you prayed for a woman who was fighting God but it released her. There have been countless things. You’re beyond amazing. I’m so ecstatic to spend this next year with you. I would never pass up the opportunity to experience something like this with someone as incredible as you. Wherever it takes us just know I will always love you.
DAY ONE// YOUR BEST FRIEND
There is no one like you. No one that even comes close. You’re one of those people that can pull absolutely everything off, no matter how obscure or unusual it is. It’s odd, I never thought we would become so close to the point where we are together pretty much every day in the summer. There are many best friends that have walked in and out of my life, but you Faith, I know would never allow us to drift apart. Unfortunately soon, we will go from seeing each other daily to going a year without seeing each other at all. Soon, we’ll be skyping all the time. (“Good morning, Faith” “Good night, Annie”). That day I leave, I will be so sad to say goodbye to you, but I am also excited for the day I get to come back and see you. We will be so different, but always the same. There will be no one who I will feel more comfortable with (i’m serious, it’s ridiculous how we act together, WE’RE SO WEIRD) and no one who I can trust more with my secrets. You’ve never given me a reason to not tell you things. I love you so much, girl.
together forever, never apart. maybe in distance, but never in heart. ♥
Day 1 - Your BestFriend.Day 2 - Your Crush.
Day 3 - Your Parents.
Day 4 - Your Sibling. (Or Closest Relative.)
Day 5 - Your Dreams.
Day 6 - A Stranger.
Day 7 - Your Ex
Day 8 - A Dead Relative.
Day 9 - Someone You Wish You Could Meet.
Day 10 - Someone You Don’t Talk Too As Much As You’d Like Too.
Day 11 - A Deceased Person You Wish You Could Talk Too.
Day 12 - The Person You Hate Most/Cause You Alot Of Pain.
Day 13 - Someone You Wish Could Forgive You.
Day 14 - Someone You’ve Drifted Away From.
Day 15 - The Person You Miss The Most.
Day 16 - Someone That’s Not In Your State/Country.
Day 17 - Someone From Your Childhood.
Day 18 - The Person That You Wish You Could Be.
Day 19 - Someone That Pesters Your Mind. (Good Or Bad.)
Day 20 - The One That Broke Your Heart The Hardest.
Day 21 - Someone You Judged By Their First Impression.
Day 22 - Someone You Want Too Give A Second Chance Too.
Day 23 - The Last Person You Kissed.
Day 24 - The Person That Gave You Your Favorite Memory.
Day 25 - The Person You Know That Is Going Through The Worst Of Times.
Day 26 - The Last Person You Made A Pinky Promise Too.
Day 27 - The Friendliest Person You Knew For Only One Day.
Day 28 - Someone That Changed Your Life.
Day 29 - The Person That You Want Too Tell Everything Too, But Too Afraid Too.
Day 30 - Your Reflection In The Mirror.
I saw this on another tumblr and I decided I wanted to do it as well :)